The Evangelistic Atheist

As I was doing ministry in the jail, a woman came to my study one Wednesday afternoon and started giving evidence before I could give it. It turned out she had been in jail some months before and had heard the very same lesson. She said she had actually been sharing it with people on the outside, using it to defend the Bible . . . but she was an atheist! An evangelistic atheist! An unbelieving apologist! She said that part of why she turned herself in on a warrant was because this was the only place she ever heard anyone give actual evidence for the truth of the Bible.

When I asked what kept her from believing in God, her answer sucked the breath from me. With tears forming in her eyes, she said, “I have not been a virgin since I was two years old. Every man in my life has used me and abused me. If there is a God in heaven who would forgive those men . . . I would rather burn in hell.” There was hardly a dry eye in the room.

It was no longer time to talk about the geological evidence of the pre-flood world—it was time to talk about forgiveness. Wisdom that was not from me began to flow from my mouth. Reassurance that forgiveness was not just for the offenders, but for her. It was a gift that could free her heart from the anger and bitterness that had consumed her and dictated her choices for years—for her entire life. Verses came to mind, words of comfort and encouragement. It was one of those strange moments in which I knew the power of the Holy Spirit just flowed through me to be a blessing to someone else—to a room full of broken and hurting women in desperate need of forgiveness and hope.

She didn’t come the following week. I didn’t know if she had been released, or if she was still wrestling with God. I just had to turn it over to him.

Sometime later, she was back in jail and returned to Bible study, where I was sharing the same lesson again—it’s not that I had done it that many times, either! She just had to laugh because what were the odds? But this time, she started coming regularly. She did laundry at night and slept during the day, but she had someone wake her up so she wouldn’t miss Bible study. She loved the evidence, and God was getting her heart! She was hungering for the Word, reading her Bible all the time, and drawing others in the block into the study with her. God was at work!

This woman continued to come and often was the one in the group to share how God had truly changed her heart. She would share that she had been an atheist not that long ago, and now she found she couldn’t put the Bible down—and beyond that, she had as many as 16 women gathering with her as she studied her Bible out in the block. Broken, hurting women—eager to learn with her!

One day she brought another gal to our study. This woman was clearly not a believer, and it appeared she came only on the promise of “evidence.” She listened with great interest throughout our time together. The next time I came, she started bubbling about how the evidence I shared had gotten her to open a Bible for the first time. God’s Word pulled her in, and now she simply couldn’t get enough. Moreover, both of these women were now sharing how God had transformed them—and others were testifying to the changes they could see in these women.

A few weeks later, the first woman was released, but the second continued to literally run to Bible study, and others would just laugh at her eagerness! This time she brought a friend of her own, one who had been raised in the church but had become disillusioned and fallen away from the faith—angry with God. In that study, you could see God working in this third woman’s heart.

As I later reflected on this remarkable chain of events, I saw clearly how the early church could have started and spread so quickly. As these women were given a firm foundation to place their trust and faith, they began to devour the Word. That, in turn, was transforming them in a simply contagious way. These women didn’t have to be told to disciple; their changed lives spoke volumes, and they simply couldn’t help but share all that they had seen and heard. I think that looks a little like the early church we read about in Acts! Praise God! His truth simply does not return void.

“But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared

to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give

the reason for the hope that you have.

But do this with gentleness and respect.”

1 Peter 3:15 NIV

“Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling

and slander, along with every form of malice.

Be kind and compassionate to one another,

forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Ephesians 4:31–32 NIV

“Many of the Samaritans from that town believed in him

because of the woman’s testimony.”

John 4:39 NIV

“Therefore many of the Jews who had come to visit Mary,

and had seen what Jesus did, believed in him.”

John 11:45 NIV